Monday, 6 October 2014

A Season of Quiet



I was going to send my resume to a new publishing house here in town. But I didn't.

I was going to join The Nester with an October 31-day series. But I didn't.

I was going to have the first draft of a novel written by now. But I don't.

Instead, I find I'm desperately in need of a season (or two) of quiet. I've always been a something-and. A mom-and-writer-and-editor, etc. and although I haven't actively consulted God about it, I feel he's nudging me to strip away any extras.

I've never allowed myself to just be the simplest version of me. I'm always adding things to my life, and not juggling them very well at all. I've already cleared my life of most extra activities and commitments, but I find I haven't yet cleared my head (and I still have a couple of commitments that I can't wait to be finished with). I still want to be that famous novelist or busy editor or viral blogger. But why? I need to take a step back from even these possibly-God-given desires and rest. So that's what I'm planning to do.

I want to be just a mom.

Just a wife.

Just a homemaker

Just a friend.

Just for awhile.

I need to figure out the basic tenets of who I am supposed to be and what I want out of life. Then maybe I will know exactly which book I need to write. Maybe I'll be able to eke out some kind of household routine and start enjoying my home and being hospitable. Maybe. But even if none of that happens, maybe I just need to be still and know. I will continue blogging as I feel led, so y'all get to come along on my journey to stillness.




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  1. My father used to say you had to get very quiet to hear God. Here is to listening :)

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    1. That is excellent advice. I'm not sure I've ever been quiet enough.

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  2. Love it <3 I think our culture tends to value a "busy" schedule. And yet, more and more mental health practices are encouraging people to slow down, to enjoy, to simplify. I think you're so incredibly cool, for taking a step back. Here's to a season of quiet :)

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    1. Thanks Chelsey. I think once I quiet my head (and my darn email inbox!) I'll be better able to handle the externally busier seasons of life.

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